A Sunday Without….

I woke up early today… and found it was yet dark outside.  Sitting at my window-sill I saw the first lights of dawn painting the skies in myriad shades of vermilion and orange.  It was was soft and beautiful dawn, punctured by twittering birds heralding a new day.. pregnant with hope and so many possibilities.  Found myself, engulfed with reminiscences and memories of those I love… many of whom are no longer with me. Yet, the poignant moments spent with them remain.. they remind me of times when I was alive. myipaddress .  As a haunting emptiness stretches ahead… the day brings forth soulful thoughts which I have penned down: 

        A Sea of Memories….
They are fleeting… memories like receding waves at the sea-shore
Subtly moistening my mind with reminiscences lost in yore
I can feel their subtle urgings to delve into feelings long past
Like sea-shells scattered across the sand frothy waves have cast
Wish I could drown my illusions in the deep blue waters neigh
Perhaps they would reappear with every wave in a hissing sigh
Strange companions they are in this soulful walk through life
Surreptitiously they peep into mind, in a joyless sullen strife
Can decipher footprints on sand of paths long treaded and cast
Like wreckages veiled in mists of time with just a grotesque mast
Ihe wailing salty wind… roar of surging waves across grey skies
A piteous heaviness within, I can barely decipher… silently lies
I glance heaven wards… in craved agony to vouch messages sent
Perhaps they are lessons in guise… the God’s have verily vent
I ponder at painless lessons…. and if our lives could be kind
Would be easier to live it then… and none would really mind
Futile wishful emptiness… as my haunting reminiscences drove
Life beckons in pain again… to rummage it’s treasure trove.
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Festival of Lights

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They will be lit, lamps all… luminescent in their pious glow,
I will sit under starry skies… reminiscing of days long ago,
When the lights and endless laughter were a part of the day,
When life had a colour, a glow… like a rainbow at play,
Near ones, loved souls whose nearness was sheer joy,
Old rituals, customs and festivities not just a routine ploy,
Passed away…  those moments and ones who are now of yore,
Shall never return again… my blissful past to make me smile like before,
Yet, I shall light the lamp, and seek the stars again on Deepawali night,
My homage to moments, feelings and loved ones whom I shall never sight.

Wish everyone a most wondrous, joyous and a peaceful Diwali.  It is not just a day to light lamps but to light up our lives.  And the only way to do it, is to light up the lives of others…!  May the lamp glow and dispel the darkness of hatred, violence, selfishness, greed and fear….and may God bless us all!!

THE DAY WE ALL LOOK FORWARD TO – SUNDAY

Sunday’s have a flavour most enjoy… it marks a day to rest, eat leisurely meals, meet friends and have outings with the family!  I often wonder at those who are largely to themselves, does the day make a big difference..perhaps they rest too but cannot share their moments with close ones.  I spend this day dusting the ‘dead archives’, a name I have given to my old memories… they often peep from the remotest corners of my mind. And I am reminded of times when Sunday’s were such fun… all that seems a long time ago.  Yet, I do not dread the day, at least it gives me time to myself and I need that too… besides my thoughts and reminiscences need to be galvanized.  They help me recharge and rearrange pictures from yesters… which induce joy with hints of sadness.  Even though Sunday’s are now a tad drab, they were once a glee! And deep down I still know.. however it is now, the best is yet to be!

Life is all about giving. Its about sharing your thoughts and actions with others. It is about being selfless, as it is more paying. The laws of the universe are based on a very fine balance of give and take. The balance always balances equally. Hence, my message to all is to be selfless and share their best. This inevitably brings the best from others and the universe.

A famous quote from Swami Vivekananda : Life is short and its vanities are transient, but they alone live who live for others. The others are more dead than alive.